Saturday, November 7, 2009

little Ben's curious case

It was overwhelming, to watch the compresssion of a man's longevity into no much more than two hours.
It is just too short, barely a glimpse.

In every scene little Ben became younger, I perceived my body and mentality aging. As if it were my marrow he had been drinking. And I have no idea why I was so susceptive.

Death is not what I concern, yet loneliness.
The heavy, interminable loneliness he went through. Partly because of Ben's unique. But like what Mr. Oti said, "We are just as alone as they are."

I do want to travel, to sail all the way to Florida keys and make love with my Daisy and have a babe. But after all, but what lasts?
Even while some things last, I go to the end. I felt my grip of God become frail. And the world is drifting again, in a random universe.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

never better

You took yourself as good enough,
in a level to meet it there.

Yet it's not enough, there is always someone better,
someone taller, quicker, whiter, more attractive(not to you),
lives a cooler life or a stupid life but somehow he wins what you want.
You cannot beat them.
You always want to be them,
Truth is, you can never be better than your wants.

Friday, April 17, 2009

smell of the foreign land

It brought up again, after a long long time missing. I miss it really much.

Too long I've been staying in this country. Too many times visits exhausted my curiosity. I couldn't remember that was me who was once excited breathing in it. I have been used to it and only wish time could go faster to send me something new.

Tonight it brought up again. It's so familiar yet so fresh. I recalled how the story was told in the Alchemist:


It was the levanter, the wind that came from Africa. It didn't bring with it the smell of the desert, nor the threat of Moorish invasion. Instead, it brought the scent of a perfume he knew well, and the touch of a kiss, a kiss that came from far away, slowly, slowly, until it rested on his lips.


Already I am on my way to the treasure. I wonder when and where will I meet her. I am readier than ever to pass by the oasis.

Monday, January 26, 2009

sweet long dream

Suddenly there was a weird impulse telling me to buy a ticket to go to Southern America.
So there I went. Having no idea where was I heading, Brazil,
Argentina of Chile.
My trip began.


Sunny, warm air, clear vision, I was already there.
The first impression came in my mind is......
The world seemed turned up side down.
I saw the shore and my experience told me that's north but indeed south.
I had come to the world where people put the
southern hemisphere on the top of a map.

On way way to the shore, gradually it got bustling.
And things are covered in yellow. Yellow house, yellow road.
That's probably because of the mud streets.


In a mountain I Leaning on the railing overlooked the near ocean. Next to me was an Spanish restaurant. I went in for a phone call. The hostess was very generous and treated me to a glass of orange juice. However no one picked up the phone back in the States.
No one knew I was in Southern America, they must thought I was somehow disappeared.


Out of the restaurant, suddenly there was a girl talk to me in Chinese, obviously she is from Taiwan. (pretty well she got a camera) I forgot to bring mine, it a nice chance to borrow it from her.

By the railings she kept making tons of different subjects in talk with me, seemed never want to stop. While the moment I didn't beware , she surprisingly came toward me and kissed. I stepped aside after she did that, being afraid of what will she do next, left the mountain and decided to roam on the beach alone until the sunset.


Still alone, I bought the ticket flying back to Seattle. No souvenir, on beautiful photos with me, just like a normal day sitting in the library studying, and came home as usual.

In dream like this. I can lie in bed and go all over the world XD


Thursday, January 22, 2009

what the fog

These days the fog made this city a real steam box.
It was like riding on clouds on my way to school.

Several times I braked but the car looked like was sliding under a red light.
(that's how the around floating fog made my illusion)
The visibility is like......
Standing on the Liberty Island without seeing the Statue of Liberty.
Walking a dog but seeing in the end of chain it is buried in clouds.

I had the kind of feeling that my dear Lord tried to keep me from flying.
But why!?

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Night airport






Night airport is gorgeous.
Blue taxiway lights, white and green beacon rotating on the tower.

Fog is not airman's favorite. Tonight the fog covered all over Paine field, made the ray of lights all revealed. Under the hazy sky, my illusion told my I am drifting on a shoreless ocean.

In the middle of ground school there was a dog of pilot rush into the classroom. He went on my legs, sent me the tightest hug since I left Taiwan.


Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Favorite songs in 2008


Through this review I found I didn't listen much Rock'n Roll actually, only to listen a lot of soundtracks. It's all because the melody combined with story is much easier to imprint in my mind.




[ Soul / Blue / RnB ]
PLAY ALL Soul

Teenage Love Affair Alicia Keys
{As I Am}
PLAY mv, It's cute!
P.D.A. (We Just Don't Care) John Legend
{Once Again}

Heaven John Legend
{Once Again}

Nothing's Meant To Last Brookville


Officially Yours Craig David
{Trust Me}



[ Alternative / Indie ]
PLAY ALL Alternative

Earth Intruders Björk
They can dance with this!!
Hoppipolla Sigur Rós
{Takk}
PLAY mv
agaetis byrjun Sigur Rós
{Heim}

Sex Born Poison Air
{10000 Hz Legend}

Nightlite Bonobo
{Days To Come}



[ Electronica ]
PLAY ALL Electronica

Surfin On A Rocket Air
{Talkie-Walkie}
PLAY mv
Vibracao Pauline London {Quiet Skies}

Chronic Tronic
Amon Tobin {Out from Out Where}

Nova Amon Tobin {Permutation}
Summer Gypsy Nujabes
{Metaphorical Music}
Kumomi Nujabes
{Metaphorical Music}
New colors MINIFLEX
{SUD}

Journey Beyond The Stars
Yoshinori Sunahara
{Take Off And Landing}



[Pop]
PLAY ALL Pop

Life In Mono Emma Bunton
{Life In Mono}
Smile Lily Allen

Grace Kelly Mika
{Life In Cartoon Motion}
Miles Away Madonna

Wrong Impression Natalie Imbruglia
{White Lilies Island}
Flashing Lights Kanye West

No Air
Jordin Sparks




[ Folks / Country / Indie rock ]
PLAY ALL Folks

Covered In Rain (Live) John Mayer
{Any Given Thursday}
I Don't Know What I Can Save You From Kings Of Convenience
{Quiet Is The New Loud}
Communication The Cardigans
{Long Gone Before Daylight}
Junk Of The Hearts The Cardigans
{The Gran Turismo}
Summer Day Coconut Records
{Nighttiming}
Young Folks Peter Bjorn And John

Linger The Cranberries

Take Off Your Cool Outkast (Andre 3000)
{The Love Below}



[ Soundtracks ]
PLAY ALL Soundtracks

Kill Bill Vol.1 Soundtracks

Juno Soundtracks

P.S. I Love You Soundtracks

不能說的秘密 Soundtracks

Island Etude
Soundtracks

Lust Caution
Soundtracks

Cucurrucucu Paloma Caetano Veloso
{Talk to Her}
Merry Christmas Mr.Lawrence Ryuichi Sakamoto
{Merry Christmas Mr.Lawrence}
青春的時光走廊 鍾興民
{囧男孩}




[ RocknRoll ]
PLAY ALL Rock

Closer Travis
{The Boy with No Name}
PLAY mv
All These Things That I've Done
The Killers
{Hot Fuss}

747 Kent


Into the Fire Thirteen Senses


Behold! The Night Mare The Smashing Pumpkins
{Adore}